Today is the last day of 2007. I hope my date with Dear tonight goes well and not end up like Christmas when we had quite an episode of argument.
I managed to secure a job that supposedly will last all the way till May (not sure if the last day of work is on last day of April of last day of May), it was more like a we-will-see-how-things-go assignment. Looks good in terms of their willingness to help me to learn more, hope everything goes well.
I wish that 2008 will be a year I can finally put an end to my floating status in terms of job. Hopefully I will get accepted by somewhere somehow and start my contribution to some industry and stay there for the next couple of year and if I like it stay on forever.
May 2008 be a good year for all!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Friday, December 28, 2007
Fruitful Final week of 2007
I would say I have a rather fruitful final week that ends 2007, though I didn't quite manage to make realy really full use of it, owing to the plain excuse---"lazy".
Wednesday I had planned to do the MPM books review so as to complete the full training before I can do certification. But in the end I cancelled it as I could not make it in time to last 3 hours or more and I find the long trip to ubi rather wastefulif I catch them at their office for the final hour before they close. Job offers came to me through the day, I had three in all, as I have blogged about previously.
Thursday, I went to relief a CCA instructor for 3.5hours at S$50 (out of confidentiality I shall not disclose the school), that's pretty good money! In the afternoon, I went for an interview, which turn out that the relief teaching position is only for a month (although they said "if" it's only one month would I mind the length), a little disappointed. Back home, got an email from another of the 3 offers from wednesday that I need to complete a trial assignment and bring it for interview on monday. It is too difficult to manage and the office is in ubi, very near the MPM taining centre. I am feeling like giving that up.
Friday,which is today, I went to relief the CCA again. Taught a cello girl who is in primary two and playing the miniature version of the Cello. Still, the instrument is overwhelming to her. After the half-time break, the better half of the students were to join the main orchestra for combined while leaving me to have more time to coach the weaker ones. Children being children are so easy to psycho. I taught them a way to make use of time efficiently and make use of time on their bus journey to practise their rolls (which children at the tender age should be able to do it very very well compared to us adults who have to struggle even to move our joints), and I told them that's a secret method that I only tell the 2 of them and too bad for those who are picked by the conductor to join him downstairs. The two kids smiled gleefully. Isn't that cute?
Wednesday I had planned to do the MPM books review so as to complete the full training before I can do certification. But in the end I cancelled it as I could not make it in time to last 3 hours or more and I find the long trip to ubi rather wastefulif I catch them at their office for the final hour before they close. Job offers came to me through the day, I had three in all, as I have blogged about previously.
Thursday, I went to relief a CCA instructor for 3.5hours at S$50 (out of confidentiality I shall not disclose the school), that's pretty good money! In the afternoon, I went for an interview, which turn out that the relief teaching position is only for a month (although they said "if" it's only one month would I mind the length), a little disappointed. Back home, got an email from another of the 3 offers from wednesday that I need to complete a trial assignment and bring it for interview on monday. It is too difficult to manage and the office is in ubi, very near the MPM taining centre. I am feeling like giving that up.
Friday,which is today, I went to relief the CCA again. Taught a cello girl who is in primary two and playing the miniature version of the Cello. Still, the instrument is overwhelming to her. After the half-time break, the better half of the students were to join the main orchestra for combined while leaving me to have more time to coach the weaker ones. Children being children are so easy to psycho. I taught them a way to make use of time efficiently and make use of time on their bus journey to practise their rolls (which children at the tender age should be able to do it very very well compared to us adults who have to struggle even to move our joints), and I told them that's a secret method that I only tell the 2 of them and too bad for those who are picked by the conductor to join him downstairs. The two kids smiled gleefully. Isn't that cute?
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Sick from Vietnam trip
Nono, I am not sick from the trip, but my three other travel mates are now all sick.
My friend and her boyfriend are down with serious flu. Dear dear is having gastric flu that comes with diarheoa.
Hope everyone is well soon. ( so that I'll have playmates)
My friend and her boyfriend are down with serious flu. Dear dear is having gastric flu that comes with diarheoa.
Hope everyone is well soon. ( so that I'll have playmates)
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
3 job offers
Today I had three separate, different job offers:
1. Relief Teacher at XXX Sec Sch, 1 class of Sec 3 express English plus ad hoc relief duties, location at 30mins train ride from my house
2. Relief Teacher at School of the Arts, Mathematics, not sure of workload, location, mountbatten area
3. Content Specialist planning curriculum resource in cd-rom/ multi media form, full time job, normal ofice hours, location unknown
Thinking of which to take.
1. Relief Teacher at XXX Sec Sch, 1 class of Sec 3 express English plus ad hoc relief duties, location at 30mins train ride from my house
2. Relief Teacher at School of the Arts, Mathematics, not sure of workload, location, mountbatten area
3. Content Specialist planning curriculum resource in cd-rom/ multi media form, full time job, normal ofice hours, location unknown
Thinking of which to take.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Link to my Photos taken in Vietnam
Click Here to view my Photos taken during vietnam trip
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Friday, December 21, 2007
First Christmas present from Dear
Today, Dear and I met up to exchange our christmas gifts. I bought him Jimi's (the Turn Left Turn Right author) Shiny and Moony, which is about two kids in love. He bought me a set of earrings with necklace and pendant matched. So pretty!~ "Crytallised with Swarovski crystals" it says on the box. It's a Paris Bijoux that comes with lifetime guarantee for the crystals.
Also passed to dear the little cute souvenir I bought in Vietnam for his sister, a little kiddish, but something in me tells me she will love it. True enough, I SMSed him to ask about her response and he said she loved it and kept playing with it so much that he thinks that little thing will soon be damaged in a few days. Here's how it looks like with wings made of feather and it kind of flutters around when you give it a light shake:
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Back from Vietnam (Day Two)
Day 3:
We started Day 3 with a long long ride in the tour vehicle all the way southwest to the Mekong Delta. Our destination was My Tho, which was changed from Vinh Long that has Cai Be floating market. To me this part of the trip isn't that exciting though there are many interesting things. To me, this is just like more of malaysia, ship, plantations, but nonetheless relaxing and works well in terms of bonding.
After the trip to the delta, we drove by their chinatown and visited a temple which my friend had a little issue with due to religious reasons. The temple is very chinese in setting, there are even many signage in chinese writtings.
Lunch was at a restaurant that serves many tourist. Again more overdose of succulent seafood.
After CU CHI was the city tour, Khoa had some personal urgent matters to attend and we had his colleague Vu to take us to the city tour. We went to the Notre Dame Cathedral, General Post Office, War Remnant Museum (I hated this place because the gross pictures remind me of zombies in 28 Weeks Later which I had nightmare about. Ironically, that's the first movie Dear took me to).
After the tour we got back to the hotel, again shower and wait for dinner.
Dinner was at a upscale restaurant called Liberty that had live band. It is situated in the city centre which is like Orchard Road. After dinner, we walked back to our hotel slowly while strolling the shops. My friend decided to tailor make an Ao Dai. That took us quite a while, but we still made it in time for the night market beside Ben Thanh market. Disappointingly, I didn't get to spend a single cent. Haha.
When we got back to the hotel, my friend and her BF were too tired for clubbing, so we gave it a miss.
We started Day 3 with a long long ride in the tour vehicle all the way southwest to the Mekong Delta. Our destination was My Tho, which was changed from Vinh Long that has Cai Be floating market. To me this part of the trip isn't that exciting though there are many interesting things. To me, this is just like more of malaysia, ship, plantations, but nonetheless relaxing and works well in terms of bonding.
There we saw how coconut candies are made. I bought some, you can try some if you like. It is nicer in the sense that you can taste the full flavour of the real ingredients.
After the trip to the delta, we drove by their chinatown and visited a temple which my friend had a little issue with due to religious reasons. The temple is very chinese in setting, there are even many signage in chinese writtings.
After that was dinner, and the guys went for a full body massage for only SGD20! I didn't really liked that place, the massage girls were dressed in low-cut V necked tight-fitting shirts and very short skirts. The room was dim with red lights. Yes, really sleazy, like" hello? are we in geylang or some red light district?"
Thus I was again disappointed by the lack of shopping, at least window shopping to satisfy my eyes' curiousity. :(
Day 2:
Day 2 started smoothly with breakfast at the hotel's restaurant. The food was quite tasty and had Singapore style fried noodles (actually somewhat like fried beehoon) as one of the buffet dish.
After breakfast, we embarked on a journey to CU CHI (yeah, gucci) to see the tunnels dug by the vietnamese to use during the war. On our way there, we had an episode of a motorcycle scratching our Hiace travel van and some negotiation process. Finally we reached CU CHI. We had a try to walk in the tunnel which is narrow, low pitch dark and musty in smell. After that my thighs felt so tired. Thanks to Dear who later gave me massages to soothe the aches using my mopiko (yes the tube says " for muscle fatigue"). The tunnels had most facilities, there were bunking areas, dining area, kitchen with special secret chimneys, and even a hospital area to treat the wounded. We also saw some demostration of the gruesome trapdoors that had spikes to kill the intruders.
Lunch was at a restaurant that serves many tourist. Again more overdose of succulent seafood.
After CU CHI was the city tour, Khoa had some personal urgent matters to attend and we had his colleague Vu to take us to the city tour. We went to the Notre Dame Cathedral, General Post Office, War Remnant Museum (I hated this place because the gross pictures remind me of zombies in 28 Weeks Later which I had nightmare about. Ironically, that's the first movie Dear took me to).
After the tour we got back to the hotel, again shower and wait for dinner.
Dinner was at a upscale restaurant called Liberty that had live band. It is situated in the city centre which is like Orchard Road. After dinner, we walked back to our hotel slowly while strolling the shops. My friend decided to tailor make an Ao Dai. That took us quite a while, but we still made it in time for the night market beside Ben Thanh market. Disappointingly, I didn't get to spend a single cent. Haha.
When we got back to the hotel, my friend and her BF were too tired for clubbing, so we gave it a miss.
Back from Vietnam (Day One)
As I have previously blogged, I was in Ho Chi Minh City aka Saigon, Vietnam for the past 4 days. It was rather enjoyable in general as we were a small group so there wasn't too much opportunities for too many hiccups.
Day 1:
To meet at Singapore Changi airport, my friend overslept!!!!! What a bad omen. She bought 6 pump 100ml bottles mean for toiletries to transfer water from her water bottle into, so that she will have "home-water". It was a rather stressful experience already for me and my loved one as we were the really bare-necessity people who only have passport, money, pen as our hand-held "luggage". We boarded the plane just 2 minutes before the gate close *phew* and start the suspected-to-be-not-too-time-efficient journey.
The usual SQ flight, beautiful smiles of the stewards and stewardesses, comfortable seats with individual screens to watch movies and play games...and which costed SGD130 more! Haha. But definitely relaxing upon arrival.
It was a short flight, we reached Saigon's Tan Son Nhat Airport before I could check out the toilet which I always liked doing just to have the fun of feeling pleased that Singapore is so nice to provide so many choices of toiletries within the small little compartment of privacy. After clearing customs, exchanged USD to vietnamese Dong which thankfully Dear and I only traded half of what we have, and I didn't spend much of it ultimately.
Saw Dear's and my name on a plate that a guide held " Mr XXX" and "Ms YYY". The guide is a pleasant man in his thirties called Khoa and we had a very friendly driver called Nyat. I am happy again as the trip seems to be having a good start.
Back to the hotel for shower(while I was just done with showering, there was a blackout, later asking the guide we got to know that blackouts are common in vietnam) and nap (what??!!! we come here to sleep?*sigh*). The new found disparity between me and my friend made we feel rather pleased that Dear's and my mindset and habits are quite matched. ;)
Dinner is at a restaurant where we were given a private room. The ambience was peaceful, the food was interesting. But sadly, my friend and her BF was planning to go to a church for service so the mood was a little rushed. (Not that I like to complain, perhaps they also didn't like that I was so princessy?) They left early taking a cab to their church, while me and Dear continued.
After dinner, we were driven back to the hotel. Dear and I took a walk in the streets around the hotel. The scene was interesting, so was the attempt to cross roads. When you cross roads there, you had to walk slowly at a constant speed in a fixed intended direction and the motorbikes that saturate the roads will weave around you like fishes in a pond. There was a very special thing about our hotel staff, they will hold light sticks with blinking lights, like those our traffic police use and help us to cross the roads.
Back to the hotel for rest and getting ready for the full blast of excitement of the itinenary
Day 1:
To meet at Singapore Changi airport, my friend overslept!!!!! What a bad omen. She bought 6 pump 100ml bottles mean for toiletries to transfer water from her water bottle into, so that she will have "home-water". It was a rather stressful experience already for me and my loved one as we were the really bare-necessity people who only have passport, money, pen as our hand-held "luggage". We boarded the plane just 2 minutes before the gate close *phew* and start the suspected-to-be-not-too-time-efficient journey.
The usual SQ flight, beautiful smiles of the stewards and stewardesses, comfortable seats with individual screens to watch movies and play games...and which costed SGD130 more! Haha. But definitely relaxing upon arrival.
It was a short flight, we reached Saigon's Tan Son Nhat Airport before I could check out the toilet which I always liked doing just to have the fun of feeling pleased that Singapore is so nice to provide so many choices of toiletries within the small little compartment of privacy. After clearing customs, exchanged USD to vietnamese Dong which thankfully Dear and I only traded half of what we have, and I didn't spend much of it ultimately.
Saw Dear's and my name on a plate that a guide held " Mr XXX" and "Ms YYY". The guide is a pleasant man in his thirties called Khoa and we had a very friendly driver called Nyat. I am happy again as the trip seems to be having a good start.
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After checking into our rooms and resting briefly, we had lunch at a simple coffeeshop-like restaurant eating the well known vietnamese beef noodles or pho bo as they call it. After lunch, we took a walk to the famous Ben Thanh market to check out the prices of things. Clothes and handicrafts were pretty but after about only an hour, my friend's BF was tired and overwhelmed by the heat and we left, I was actually a little disappointed.Back to the hotel for shower(while I was just done with showering, there was a blackout, later asking the guide we got to know that blackouts are common in vietnam) and nap (what??!!! we come here to sleep?*sigh*). The new found disparity between me and my friend made we feel rather pleased that Dear's and my mindset and habits are quite matched. ;)
Dinner is at a restaurant where we were given a private room. The ambience was peaceful, the food was interesting. But sadly, my friend and her BF was planning to go to a church for service so the mood was a little rushed. (Not that I like to complain, perhaps they also didn't like that I was so princessy?) They left early taking a cab to their church, while me and Dear continued.
After dinner, we were driven back to the hotel. Dear and I took a walk in the streets around the hotel. The scene was interesting, so was the attempt to cross roads. When you cross roads there, you had to walk slowly at a constant speed in a fixed intended direction and the motorbikes that saturate the roads will weave around you like fishes in a pond. There was a very special thing about our hotel staff, they will hold light sticks with blinking lights, like those our traffic police use and help us to cross the roads.
Back to the hotel for rest and getting ready for the full blast of excitement of the itinenary
Saturday, December 15, 2007
FLYing...
Hooray!~ Tomorow morning I shall fly to vietnam. I am all set, packed luggage, everything checked. Will be back just in time for christmas, so don't count me out for any parties!
Friday, December 14, 2007
Throwing away of the OLD
I was clearing my drawers in my study when I saw this bunch of cards: 11 ICC worth S$10 each and 6x M1 top-up worth S$18 and 1xM1 top-up worth S$28 and 1x M1 top-up worth S$40; A total of S$286... all spent in less thana year to call the previous guy I was with who was studying abroad.
I used to tell myself and him that we can make a long-distance relationship work. I do not know what I am trying to proof, nor who I was trying to proof it to. Over time the relationship became lethargic, and I shall not rake up the past unhappiness. Well, thanks to this guy, I've grown up and met my current Dear who is physically older but still mentally young and fun!
I am now in the process of my yearly ritual spring cleaning, which is always not done until the very last minute just as my chinese new year guests are climbing up the stairs. Opps. I'd better learn to be a better homemaker (these things take time to become a second nature habit) so as to better prepare myself for my future life. Of course, daddy and mummy will be happier to come home to a neat and nicely done up home than a pig sty!
So this season I will throw away more old stuff, not be too sentimental or thrifty :" this is remembrance of blah blah", " this thing might come in handy, so keep it so that next time no need to spend money to buy"... All these are traps which cause the massive accumulation of unwanted "useful in the future" stuffs that makes the most of the clutter.
Anyone who is reading this please give comments, encouragement, household tips etc. Thanks :)
I used to tell myself and him that we can make a long-distance relationship work. I do not know what I am trying to proof, nor who I was trying to proof it to. Over time the relationship became lethargic, and I shall not rake up the past unhappiness. Well, thanks to this guy, I've grown up and met my current Dear who is physically older but still mentally young and fun!
I am now in the process of my yearly ritual spring cleaning, which is always not done until the very last minute just as my chinese new year guests are climbing up the stairs. Opps. I'd better learn to be a better homemaker (these things take time to become a second nature habit) so as to better prepare myself for my future life. Of course, daddy and mummy will be happier to come home to a neat and nicely done up home than a pig sty!
So this season I will throw away more old stuff, not be too sentimental or thrifty :" this is remembrance of blah blah", " this thing might come in handy, so keep it so that next time no need to spend money to buy"... All these are traps which cause the massive accumulation of unwanted "useful in the future" stuffs that makes the most of the clutter.
Anyone who is reading this please give comments, encouragement, household tips etc. Thanks :)
Thursday, December 13, 2007
3 Days to TAKEOFF!~
It is three days before I set off for my Vietnam trip with my boyfriend, my girlfriend and her boyfriend. Just four of us, for four days together in a “four-reign” land. Haha. My luggage is all packed, three tops, two bottoms, a set of pyjamas, toiletries…etc… the usual travelling stuff. It is always so exicting to plan and pack a luggage, although it seems rather silly that one spends more than a week thinking and rummaging and getting all set for the trip that lasts only four days. Nonetheless, it is a good thing to have something pleasant to look forward to.
Tuesday I went to change some USD at Chinatown, people’s park complex. Went with Dear. After that we strolled around a little before heading home.
Yesterday went for lunch and movies with Dear again at west mall. We watched the Golden Compass, not too bad, but not too exiciting as I have already watched the trailer previously when we watched some other movie. After that went to collect my new spectacles from NUS Science Co-Op, then went to clement for pizza as my dinner, then Dear went home while I made my way to our extend Gamelan of 6.30 to 10pm. Jan is going away, then Thomas is going away, yes, I am going away too, so we shall all meet again next year.
Tuesday I went to change some USD at Chinatown, people’s park complex. Went with Dear. After that we strolled around a little before heading home.
Yesterday went for lunch and movies with Dear again at west mall. We watched the Golden Compass, not too bad, but not too exiciting as I have already watched the trailer previously when we watched some other movie. After that went to collect my new spectacles from NUS Science Co-Op, then went to clement for pizza as my dinner, then Dear went home while I made my way to our extend Gamelan of 6.30 to 10pm. Jan is going away, then Thomas is going away, yes, I am going away too, so we shall all meet again next year.
My New Specs, first time I tried such "funky" colours!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Yet another rainy day
Today is still a rainy day....
Went for tuition, the student said " I love maths already now!" I suppose that's MY accomplishment to feel proud of.
Went for the interview, too little slots, I told them I'll KIV.
Then met Dear at chinatown for exchanging money for our vietnam trip. The weather isn't very nice so we didn't stay too long outside.
Went for tuition, the student said " I love maths already now!" I suppose that's MY accomplishment to feel proud of.
Went for the interview, too little slots, I told them I'll KIV.
Then met Dear at chinatown for exchanging money for our vietnam trip. The weather isn't very nice so we didn't stay too long outside.
Monday, December 10, 2007
Christmas is coming
Just realised what I can actually blog about.
Last saturday I went Orchard Rd to take christmas photos with Dear. I would say the decorations weren't that fantastic as compared to my childhood days. Dear wanted to test out his new camera before our Vietnam trip so naturally I became his model, heehee~ I will try to coax him to send me some of the pictures so that I can post it here to share.
Just a little interesting thing to share. There is this pillar outside CK Tangs(Orchard branch of course) that is silver with yellow polka dots on it. It doesn't look nice at all but I suggested to dear to take a picture of it and zoom in using that as a background, walah~ it look like I am standing in a glass of fizzy drink (I think dad might do a better job, but it is more fun phototaking with Dear, cos dad takes ages before he snaps, haha)
I kind of dislike the fact that there is massive construction or reconstruction going on to build more shopping places in town. It is a stressful feeling having to walk through construction sites while trying to enjoy the chritmas mood. I must say the raining weather has made me feel more like winter wonderland, which is good, and I tend to feel like hugging my Dear tightly and feel his breath on my hair (hopefully my hair smells nice), even nicer if he kisses my forehead while we are in a cuddle. ;)
Maybe this is all just a dream but nonetheless I shall just enjoy the moment.
MERY CHRISTMAS!~
I am now thinking of what to buy for Dear for christmas, he seems to have a definite idea what to get for me already. Like I say, it's unfair that there are so many gift choices for ladies' gifts but so little for men, it's always belts, ties, wallet, pens, cologne, shaving set, shirts, cuff links... Anyone with ideas please suggest, I need many many ideas!~ (though some people say it's insincere if I take people's advice and buy for my Dear.
Last saturday I went Orchard Rd to take christmas photos with Dear. I would say the decorations weren't that fantastic as compared to my childhood days. Dear wanted to test out his new camera before our Vietnam trip so naturally I became his model, heehee~ I will try to coax him to send me some of the pictures so that I can post it here to share.
Just a little interesting thing to share. There is this pillar outside CK Tangs(Orchard branch of course) that is silver with yellow polka dots on it. It doesn't look nice at all but I suggested to dear to take a picture of it and zoom in using that as a background, walah~ it look like I am standing in a glass of fizzy drink (I think dad might do a better job, but it is more fun phototaking with Dear, cos dad takes ages before he snaps, haha)
I kind of dislike the fact that there is massive construction or reconstruction going on to build more shopping places in town. It is a stressful feeling having to walk through construction sites while trying to enjoy the chritmas mood. I must say the raining weather has made me feel more like winter wonderland, which is good, and I tend to feel like hugging my Dear tightly and feel his breath on my hair (hopefully my hair smells nice), even nicer if he kisses my forehead while we are in a cuddle. ;)
Maybe this is all just a dream but nonetheless I shall just enjoy the moment.
MERY CHRISTMAS!~
I am now thinking of what to buy for Dear for christmas, he seems to have a definite idea what to get for me already. Like I say, it's unfair that there are so many gift choices for ladies' gifts but so little for men, it's always belts, ties, wallet, pens, cologne, shaving set, shirts, cuff links... Anyone with ideas please suggest, I need many many ideas!~ (though some people say it's insincere if I take people's advice and buy for my Dear.
Vietnam trip coming!~
I am so looking forward to my vietnam trip with my Dear, my girlfriend and her BF. Haven't quite packed my luggage, neither have I bought everything like plug adaptor, batteries for my camera, changed money etc. I should get them done soon. Perhaps tomorrow. Then I can start packing and hopefully be disciplined to spring clean my two room --- I mean my study and my bedroom, so that I need not rush at the 11th hour again like usual in previous years. Anyway, packing for the trip shouldn't be too tedious, only 4 days, just like packing for a chalet.
No news about jobs, or rather one not so suitable one, I applied to teach O level subjects full time in a private school. The guy called and negotiated for 3 classes of 2 hours a week at S$20. So difficult to decide to take or not as it will depend on what other offers I get. My priority and first choice is still of course MOE. I should contribute to my nation and it's more direct to talk about how to improve teaching to a group of children with background similar to mine as a Singaporean than private schools where there is a mix of different nationality.
No news about jobs, or rather one not so suitable one, I applied to teach O level subjects full time in a private school. The guy called and negotiated for 3 classes of 2 hours a week at S$20. So difficult to decide to take or not as it will depend on what other offers I get. My priority and first choice is still of course MOE. I should contribute to my nation and it's more direct to talk about how to improve teaching to a group of children with background similar to mine as a Singaporean than private schools where there is a mix of different nationality.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
3rd installment of the BOOK of LOVE
When in love, there are the quiet moments where boundaries dissolve into a delicious all-encompassing oneness, and there's the peace of mind that comes from knowing that someone is there for you whenever for whatever.There are great conversations about everything and nothing. You can discuss your dreams and desires and know it is safe to share things you could never say to anyone else.
When you are in love, there is snuggling, explosions of passion, and spooning, as scientific research shows, makes your dreams twice as nice. When you are in love, it means there is always someone who will jump around with celebratory squeals when you are a winner, or give warmth and support when you are not.
Love gives us the strength to test the boundaries of our weakness, knowing that when we get in over our heads, a rescue mission is already on the way.
To experience such a relationship is to know that every breath affirms that you are loved and that true love overcomes all obstacles. True love can climb the highest mountain and cross the deepest sea...
...eventually.
Love can overcome ludicrous working hours, abrasive in-laws, and even episodes of insanity. In other words, nothing can hold love back. True love overcomes anything and everything.
Realising the power of love feels like a light switch is suddenly turned on in your heart. The world looks different. Or perhaps you are looking at it differently. Your search draws to a close. You have finally found true love; or true love has finally found you. "Hello!"
The End [ maybe more suitably: The beginning]
When you are in love, there is snuggling, explosions of passion, and spooning, as scientific research shows, makes your dreams twice as nice. When you are in love, it means there is always someone who will jump around with celebratory squeals when you are a winner, or give warmth and support when you are not.
Love gives us the strength to test the boundaries of our weakness, knowing that when we get in over our heads, a rescue mission is already on the way.
To experience such a relationship is to know that every breath affirms that you are loved and that true love overcomes all obstacles. True love can climb the highest mountain and cross the deepest sea...
...eventually.
Love can overcome ludicrous working hours, abrasive in-laws, and even episodes of insanity. In other words, nothing can hold love back. True love overcomes anything and everything.
Realising the power of love feels like a light switch is suddenly turned on in your heart. The world looks different. Or perhaps you are looking at it differently. Your search draws to a close. You have finally found true love; or true love has finally found you. "Hello!"
The End [ maybe more suitably: The beginning]
Swimming once more
Today had a swimming date with Dear again. Supposed to be yesterday but he accidently locked himself out of the house when going for lunch and hence we had to postphone it to today.
I seem to have a thing with swimming. I love it because there isn't too many special equiptment needed, all I need is my swimsuit and googles. No need to fuss about what shoes are suitable, which type of clothes trap heat etc. Although I don't really swim wel, or rather really swim not well, swimming is still very enjoyable.
I feel much more relaxed and exercised(and maybe exorcised) after a swim and the hot shower that the I had after feeling cold in the pool.
I am looking forward to more swims!
I seem to have a thing with swimming. I love it because there isn't too many special equiptment needed, all I need is my swimsuit and googles. No need to fuss about what shoes are suitable, which type of clothes trap heat etc. Although I don't really swim wel, or rather really swim not well, swimming is still very enjoyable.
I feel much more relaxed and exercised(and maybe exorcised) after a swim and the hot shower that the I had after feeling cold in the pool.
I am looking forward to more swims!
ps: anyone want me to be spokes person for swimming products? or model(heehee, i know I do not have very good skin, but I dare say I am skinny enough to look good in a swimsuit)?Monday, December 3, 2007
The Jobless me... :(
Recently have been having very “bad air” at home with the fact that I am jobless. Well, to admit it I cannot be really considered to be holding a permanent job which I can depend on for income.
During school term, I was a relief teacher, lucky enough to fit in my year’s worth of teaching hopping from school to school, and very much indeed pleasurable to be able to bag a few good schools into my resume or portfolio. Relief teaching is really good as it not only pays decently, it contributes to my CPF too; the only difference is that I do not have leave benefits, bonuses and medical allowances. Compared to any other part-time or temporary job, I would call this a good deal, plus it helps me work my way towards a teaching/ educating career which I had always dreamed of since I was in Kindergarten.
Beyond school time I am a math assistant instructor with the MPM math enrichment. I decided to stick to this supervising more than teaching job as I was really impressed by the materials. You can check it out at www.mpmmath.com , the children use manipulatives which they call toys and the questions are designed almost as if you were playing a game instead of doing math homework. I love the kids, especially when they smile about the own accomplishment of having discovered on their how to do the tasks on their workbooks. J This job doesn’t really pay well, simply because the requirement of an instructor is O levels but preferred to be A levels or Poly, but I am a degree holder. I cannot really blame them for paying me low as I chose to accept it, but people around me have been telling me that I am not work to my fullest market value.
Besides teaching math, I also perform music: the yangqin for mealtime entertainment. The job I have pays quite little too, but I was holding onto it due to the fact that it was a regular once-a-week affair, and I had been doing it since I was 18.
Maybe the little warfare that is beginning at home is signalling to me that it is time to re-consider my career options. Also with my new commitments in a new relationship which started in the middle of this year, I should behave more responsibly. Afterall, no one owes me a living, and no one is obliged to take me in as a dependant. However if given a choice, I think I will still want to stick to the education industry, as it gives me great pleasure seeing students rejoice over learning new things.
Hence, should anyone reading this have any comments, job opportunities, career advice etc, please feel free to either leave a comment or ask for my email. Thank you all so much. I am feeling really down.
During school term, I was a relief teacher, lucky enough to fit in my year’s worth of teaching hopping from school to school, and very much indeed pleasurable to be able to bag a few good schools into my resume or portfolio. Relief teaching is really good as it not only pays decently, it contributes to my CPF too; the only difference is that I do not have leave benefits, bonuses and medical allowances. Compared to any other part-time or temporary job, I would call this a good deal, plus it helps me work my way towards a teaching/ educating career which I had always dreamed of since I was in Kindergarten.
Beyond school time I am a math assistant instructor with the MPM math enrichment. I decided to stick to this supervising more than teaching job as I was really impressed by the materials. You can check it out at www.mpmmath.com , the children use manipulatives which they call toys and the questions are designed almost as if you were playing a game instead of doing math homework. I love the kids, especially when they smile about the own accomplishment of having discovered on their how to do the tasks on their workbooks. J This job doesn’t really pay well, simply because the requirement of an instructor is O levels but preferred to be A levels or Poly, but I am a degree holder. I cannot really blame them for paying me low as I chose to accept it, but people around me have been telling me that I am not work to my fullest market value.
Besides teaching math, I also perform music: the yangqin for mealtime entertainment. The job I have pays quite little too, but I was holding onto it due to the fact that it was a regular once-a-week affair, and I had been doing it since I was 18.
Maybe the little warfare that is beginning at home is signalling to me that it is time to re-consider my career options. Also with my new commitments in a new relationship which started in the middle of this year, I should behave more responsibly. Afterall, no one owes me a living, and no one is obliged to take me in as a dependant. However if given a choice, I think I will still want to stick to the education industry, as it gives me great pleasure seeing students rejoice over learning new things.
Hence, should anyone reading this have any comments, job opportunities, career advice etc, please feel free to either leave a comment or ask for my email. Thank you all so much. I am feeling really down.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
continuation of the Book of Love
The bottom line is that love requires genuine effort. Cuddles and kisses go a long way toward making love last, but they aren't sufficient by themselves. Sometimes you need to get out and push (the car) [ironically, Dear's car 'died' before and couldn't start, I viewed it as a bad omen of myself being a jinx], if you want your love to keep going forward, which is why falling in love can occassionally be almost as exhausting as it is invigorating. This is one of the two main reasons why people turn their backs on love. It's hard enough taking responsibility for your own feelings, let alone looking after someone else's heart as well right?
The second reason people give up: FEAR. Fear of hurt, fear of rejection, fear of potential lovers who turn out to be evil people who take all the blankets during the night and squeeze the toothpaste from the middle. Fear is the #1 obstacle to falling in love. [I applaude for Dear for being so brave and confident to dare!]
But a little fear is not so terrible. In fact it is normal and healthy. Surely, no one likes to be naked and exposed or have their dirty linen hanging out in public.
The journey to true love is not as daunting as it seems. You don't have to lose yourself to find someone else. On the contrary, different points of view are every bit as important as the things you have in common.
Two Lives, One Love.
Your personality flourishes in a relationship, which brings out your best at home and at work. Falling in love means you still get to do everything that made you happy, but now you also have the joy of sharing those things with someone else. Plus, you get a whole bunch of bonus benefits as well:
~ to be continued~
The second reason people give up: FEAR. Fear of hurt, fear of rejection, fear of potential lovers who turn out to be evil people who take all the blankets during the night and squeeze the toothpaste from the middle. Fear is the #1 obstacle to falling in love. [I applaude for Dear for being so brave and confident to dare!]
But a little fear is not so terrible. In fact it is normal and healthy. Surely, no one likes to be naked and exposed or have their dirty linen hanging out in public.
The journey to true love is not as daunting as it seems. You don't have to lose yourself to find someone else. On the contrary, different points of view are every bit as important as the things you have in common.
Two Lives, One Love.
Your personality flourishes in a relationship, which brings out your best at home and at work. Falling in love means you still get to do everything that made you happy, but now you also have the joy of sharing those things with someone else. Plus, you get a whole bunch of bonus benefits as well:
~ to be continued~
Yesterday and today
Yesterday went swimming with DEAR. Dear swam 20 laps and I did 13 half-laps (started at quarter mark and stopped at three-quarter mark). After that we went for lunch and went to Dear’s house, supposedly to look for a movie to watch, but ended up looking at his baby photo, more like toddler photo. Later, Dear sent me home to put out my swimsuit to dry. I invited him up to look at my baby photo. Dear found a few very cute and funny.
The one with many Chinese pastry (pong-piah) on my walker:
The one with many Chinese pastry (pong-piah) on my walker:
The grumpy girl on her one-year-old birthday:
After that, we went to walk in the malls, I had dinner and went for gamelan at NUS. Before dropping me off, we had a good time cuddling and kissing, not to mentioned that I discovered for myself what makes Dear “high”, haha. ;)
After that, we went to walk in the malls, I had dinner and went for gamelan at NUS. Before dropping me off, we had a good time cuddling and kissing, not to mentioned that I discovered for myself what makes Dear “high”, haha. ;)
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Today, Dear has to work. So I tried to tidy my house, threw away quite a bit of useless stuff, freeing up some space for putting things back into their proper position. Will work hard to make my house cosy because Dear is have a meet-parents session during Chinese new year.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Swim again
Today I went swimming again with DEAR. I wore the new purple swimsuit I blogged about earlier.
---feeling drunk after drinking two kinds of wine with parents, will blog soon---
---feeling drunk after drinking two kinds of wine with parents, will blog soon---
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
From the "Simple Truth about LOVE"
Love inspires us to do great, beautiful, terrible things and a bunch of weird and stupid stuff. That’s because when we fall in love, our reasons and perspective become distorted, and we discover the lovers’ paradox. Suddenly, we have clear purpose, but we suffer overwhelming indecision. The affectionate attention we receive means we feel more self-affirmed and radiant than ever before, and yet we are sick with self-doubt and insecurity.
Personal grooming also takes on a fresh energy, sometimes to the point where we change virtually everything about our appearance that turned our admirer’s head in the first place.
Though it is wonderful in so many ways, falling in love can be a very unsettling experience. Poetic torment churns in your soul and keeps you from settling. Whenever you close your eyes, the object of your desire floats across a dreamscape towards your waiting lips. (I don’t really understand why the lips.) In fact, the only time we really wake up to reality is when the new lover is actually approaching.
Unfortunately, at that exact moment, your molecular structure turns into water. You try to stay calm and composed, endeavouring to present a picture of charisma and confidence. You fail. (but I think it’s ok)
All those breathless secrets in your heat that you rehearsed a thousand times and are now ready to share gently with a tender ear, you suddenly blurt out, sounding like a race caller from an ancient civilisation.
Really think about your feelings. Run through a few emotional scenarios in your mind and see how they look and feel. There’s a reason we feel so shy when we first meet someone special. Both people are seriously checking each other out, looking for and revealing some very personal information. The process is all about trust. Slowly, we get closer and closer. Some things just shouldn’t be rushed, and love is always worth waiting for.
In its early stages, love is beyond wonderful. Each moment together feels like a passionate embrace in a magic forest. You gallop tirelessly in perpetual and blessed sunshine, your feet a few inches above the ground. In other words, our perceptions of ourselves and our beloved can become a touch idealised.
We tend to forget that Romeo and Juliet DID NOT, in actual fact, end all that well.
The truth is that love is always beautiful, and may even feel perfect. But it can never be so, not all the time. Falling in love is an exquisite but complex coming together of two individuals, and in a beautiful, dynamic living relationship always has some ups and downs.
The irritating thing about falling in love is that you don’t suddenly get transported to the mythical Kingdom of Coupledom, where everything is designed to make your relationship perfect. Two independently minded people usually have similar but slightly different needs, and these differences keep us on our toes. Surprises keep your love exciting and fresh.
Personal grooming also takes on a fresh energy, sometimes to the point where we change virtually everything about our appearance that turned our admirer’s head in the first place.
Though it is wonderful in so many ways, falling in love can be a very unsettling experience. Poetic torment churns in your soul and keeps you from settling. Whenever you close your eyes, the object of your desire floats across a dreamscape towards your waiting lips. (I don’t really understand why the lips.) In fact, the only time we really wake up to reality is when the new lover is actually approaching.
Unfortunately, at that exact moment, your molecular structure turns into water. You try to stay calm and composed, endeavouring to present a picture of charisma and confidence. You fail. (but I think it’s ok)
All those breathless secrets in your heat that you rehearsed a thousand times and are now ready to share gently with a tender ear, you suddenly blurt out, sounding like a race caller from an ancient civilisation.
Really think about your feelings. Run through a few emotional scenarios in your mind and see how they look and feel. There’s a reason we feel so shy when we first meet someone special. Both people are seriously checking each other out, looking for and revealing some very personal information. The process is all about trust. Slowly, we get closer and closer. Some things just shouldn’t be rushed, and love is always worth waiting for.
In its early stages, love is beyond wonderful. Each moment together feels like a passionate embrace in a magic forest. You gallop tirelessly in perpetual and blessed sunshine, your feet a few inches above the ground. In other words, our perceptions of ourselves and our beloved can become a touch idealised.
We tend to forget that Romeo and Juliet DID NOT, in actual fact, end all that well.
The truth is that love is always beautiful, and may even feel perfect. But it can never be so, not all the time. Falling in love is an exquisite but complex coming together of two individuals, and in a beautiful, dynamic living relationship always has some ups and downs.
The irritating thing about falling in love is that you don’t suddenly get transported to the mythical Kingdom of Coupledom, where everything is designed to make your relationship perfect. Two independently minded people usually have similar but slightly different needs, and these differences keep us on our toes. Surprises keep your love exciting and fresh.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Shoes...
Yesterday DEAR took me to Queensway Shopping Centre to buy sports shoe. In the end I bought a Reebok Premium Trainer II Mid, though I really liked the Premium Trainer Low. It was a good deal, priced at S$79.90, managed to get a 20% discount and ended paying S$63 for it.
The one I bought:
The one I bought:
The one I liked:
Today we went to play pool, for some reason I didn't really feel like playing after a very short while, probably PMS? DEAR's friend just had a one month old baby, so we went shopping for baby's present. It kind of feel weird but at the same time good. It's a feeling that is rather hard to describe.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Free to learn
I have been staying at home jobless-ly for more than a month. Other than doing the usual dinner music on a ship that provides buffet dinner to its customer and I provide the music as part of a Trio, I basically am a good-for-nothing, not-earning-anything bum.
I think I should take the free time before I get a job to equip myslf with some skills. Perhaps I should build up more songs in my gig repertoire, choose more of those English, Jazzy, Lounge music kind. I should just grab some ready scores with jazz notation, learn how to read jazz chords and first practise a few popular songs, then transpose from my piano scores some of the more upbeat dance songs like tango, cha-cha, flameco and stuffs like that, since my aim to to get a better gig environment such as a hotel lounge.
Also since it would be too late to register for driving lesson now (reason being that there will be a little lag time between registration and actually starting of lesson, so I should always try to speculate in advance when is my free period that I can learn the fastest and get it done.) Hence, the best thing I might be able to do to build up some grounding might be to read on my own first, and also decide whether I want to do manual or auto, and also which kind of car I would like to save $ for, a hunchback or a bigger one that can transport my yangqin? The yangqin part might depend on whether I'd still want to be earning from gigs. The manual gear might mean I can drive daddy's van.
Anyone has ideas? or comment?
I think I should take the free time before I get a job to equip myslf with some skills. Perhaps I should build up more songs in my gig repertoire, choose more of those English, Jazzy, Lounge music kind. I should just grab some ready scores with jazz notation, learn how to read jazz chords and first practise a few popular songs, then transpose from my piano scores some of the more upbeat dance songs like tango, cha-cha, flameco and stuffs like that, since my aim to to get a better gig environment such as a hotel lounge.
Also since it would be too late to register for driving lesson now (reason being that there will be a little lag time between registration and actually starting of lesson, so I should always try to speculate in advance when is my free period that I can learn the fastest and get it done.) Hence, the best thing I might be able to do to build up some grounding might be to read on my own first, and also decide whether I want to do manual or auto, and also which kind of car I would like to save $ for, a hunchback or a bigger one that can transport my yangqin? The yangqin part might depend on whether I'd still want to be earning from gigs. The manual gear might mean I can drive daddy's van.
Anyone has ideas? or comment?
countdown to 23rd Nov
I am counting down to 23d Nov. Reason? DEAR is ending reservist that day which means we will (hopefully) have more time together to have fun and also to dicuss serious stuffs if necessary. Counting and counting, just one more day!~ WoHoo!~
Anyway I only have this little time left to accomplish my task of getting myself a pair of comfortable shoes. The Reebok Premium trainer lo is the last pair at BPP and alas, one white one yellowish so I didn't accept it. Went BATA on my way to NUS, power shoe not as comfortable though only $25, I guess I should spend a little more to invest in more comfy shoes.
Anyway I only have this little time left to accomplish my task of getting myself a pair of comfortable shoes. The Reebok Premium trainer lo is the last pair at BPP and alas, one white one yellowish so I didn't accept it. Went BATA on my way to NUS, power shoe not as comfortable though only $25, I guess I should spend a little more to invest in more comfy shoes.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Flu... *cough cough*
Down with flu last week but still had to work hard at trying to get a job. I always think after we sow our seeds (the applications) we should wait for it to grow (get response). Why is everyone pushing me and lamenting that I am staying home and not working hard to get a job?
Just got an opportunity for a long term lounge music gig. It's going to be a 3-Girl-Band if it works out. I liked the terms, few hours at night everyday, more than $1k a month (monthly salary), but I don't like the lady boss who is going to be one of the musicians. All of a sudden I felt that the musician's job on ship though miserably paid, still makes me feel much better than working with strangers who seem to be unwilling to take me in but pretend to be nice.
Yesterday went for audition for the above job, I was filled with ambivilance, one hand I hope I can get to work there at Marina Mandarin Bar/ Lounge, one the other hand I foresee I'll be rather unhappy with my company due to the fact that she is my "boss"'s woman, won't look nice to offend her. Maybe I should get myself better agents? Or be like her, get a sugar daddy and make him my agent? Or maybe totally quit fromthe scene and get a better job, as people say, I am educated, why stoop so low?
I can only say that music is one thing that can make me really happy, but it can also make me really sad. What can make you can break you.
Just got an opportunity for a long term lounge music gig. It's going to be a 3-Girl-Band if it works out. I liked the terms, few hours at night everyday, more than $1k a month (monthly salary), but I don't like the lady boss who is going to be one of the musicians. All of a sudden I felt that the musician's job on ship though miserably paid, still makes me feel much better than working with strangers who seem to be unwilling to take me in but pretend to be nice.
Yesterday went for audition for the above job, I was filled with ambivilance, one hand I hope I can get to work there at Marina Mandarin Bar/ Lounge, one the other hand I foresee I'll be rather unhappy with my company due to the fact that she is my "boss"'s woman, won't look nice to offend her. Maybe I should get myself better agents? Or be like her, get a sugar daddy and make him my agent? Or maybe totally quit fromthe scene and get a better job, as people say, I am educated, why stoop so low?
I can only say that music is one thing that can make me really happy, but it can also make me really sad. What can make you can break you.
Monday, November 12, 2007
Work, Shop
11-11-2007
Today was such a nicely laid out day. First thing in the morning, the MPM math class had only slightly over 10 students, with a number of them taking a break for the holiday months (so that they do not need to pay) or others going on overseas trips. Finally our Sunday morning class has the correct teacher-student ratio. Sad to say last week when I did a swap for a colleague, she also had a smaller-than-usual crowd, thus I can’t dream that she can provide the supporting evidence that the crowded group with its staggering arrival is difficult to handle to efficiency. With only a manageable handful of “rascals” to handle, we were able to get most of them to finish work by 11am. All of us were happy. =) Happily I went home for my lunch. When was the last time I was so relaxed? I cannot quite remember.
On my way home, was hoping to get more job opportunities (now that I am officially jobless), I decided to SMS my dinner music boss cum agent to indicate my availability tonight and my being highly interested to work. And it worked! At slightly past noon I was informed that I could work tonight; another $30 to my “shoe fund” to buy that discounted Reebok Premium (Cross-)Trainer low at Royal Sporting House at $49.90.
Lunch was the delicious fish soup (which I always remember that it’s DEAR’s favourite but he’ll probably not get to taste my mum’s fish soup anytime soon), after that was lazing about the house, a little on the bed, a little on the sofa with the TV… … Then it’s time for fruits when dad woke from his nap. Then time for popiah, and I decided to go out a little early to shop around a bit.
I was very tempted to buy the $10 funfit bikini from OG after seeing it on Friday a few minutes before the store closes for the day (I went there after work on ship you see). Instead I missed a 190 bus and took a 700A which I decided to alight at the OG Orchard. There was a usual auntie-crowd as with any sale season. Looking around a bit at shoes, then decided to head straight to the swim wear. This store has much more stock laid out. Choosing 2 sets of bikini of S size which I think I might like I decided to take a look at their Triumph offers. Pretending to rummage a bit of the $29.90-39.90 tankini, the sales lady came to promote her only-two-pieces-left $19.90 one piece swimsuits. She urged me to try them. What’s the harm I thought, since I have to try the Fun fit bikini anyway. I had just bought an Arena one-piece at 50% off while trying to shop for shoes but RSH was closed for stock-take. In the end I bought a purple $19.90 Triumph one-piece.
Today was such a nicely laid out day. First thing in the morning, the MPM math class had only slightly over 10 students, with a number of them taking a break for the holiday months (so that they do not need to pay) or others going on overseas trips. Finally our Sunday morning class has the correct teacher-student ratio. Sad to say last week when I did a swap for a colleague, she also had a smaller-than-usual crowd, thus I can’t dream that she can provide the supporting evidence that the crowded group with its staggering arrival is difficult to handle to efficiency. With only a manageable handful of “rascals” to handle, we were able to get most of them to finish work by 11am. All of us were happy. =) Happily I went home for my lunch. When was the last time I was so relaxed? I cannot quite remember.
On my way home, was hoping to get more job opportunities (now that I am officially jobless), I decided to SMS my dinner music boss cum agent to indicate my availability tonight and my being highly interested to work. And it worked! At slightly past noon I was informed that I could work tonight; another $30 to my “shoe fund” to buy that discounted Reebok Premium (Cross-)Trainer low at Royal Sporting House at $49.90.
Lunch was the delicious fish soup (which I always remember that it’s DEAR’s favourite but he’ll probably not get to taste my mum’s fish soup anytime soon), after that was lazing about the house, a little on the bed, a little on the sofa with the TV… … Then it’s time for fruits when dad woke from his nap. Then time for popiah, and I decided to go out a little early to shop around a bit.
I was very tempted to buy the $10 funfit bikini from OG after seeing it on Friday a few minutes before the store closes for the day (I went there after work on ship you see). Instead I missed a 190 bus and took a 700A which I decided to alight at the OG Orchard. There was a usual auntie-crowd as with any sale season. Looking around a bit at shoes, then decided to head straight to the swim wear. This store has much more stock laid out. Choosing 2 sets of bikini of S size which I think I might like I decided to take a look at their Triumph offers. Pretending to rummage a bit of the $29.90-39.90 tankini, the sales lady came to promote her only-two-pieces-left $19.90 one piece swimsuits. She urged me to try them. What’s the harm I thought, since I have to try the Fun fit bikini anyway. I had just bought an Arena one-piece at 50% off while trying to shop for shoes but RSH was closed for stock-take. In the end I bought a purple $19.90 Triumph one-piece.
Showed off to my mum of my good catch. She was impressed at the price! But I did not tell her of the Arena one bought just a few days back or she’ll bite my head off and yell at me for thinking I have too much cash to spare while missing a job. Haha.
Friday, November 9, 2007
Fantastic movie
When your loved on crossed the boundary, she/he'll turn into stardust. A star can only shine when it's heart is not broken...
Today is DEAR's off day from his three week long reservist, standing guard onboard the ship, which unfortunately isn't the same one that I sail one when I play music for money. We were at Tampines mall watching the movie Stardust. As Eileen mentioned in her blog, the fantasy movie was indeed a vert charmingly romantic one. I really enjoyed it.
Today is DEAR's off day from his three week long reservist, standing guard onboard the ship, which unfortunately isn't the same one that I sail one when I play music for money. We were at Tampines mall watching the movie Stardust. As Eileen mentioned in her blog, the fantasy movie was indeed a vert charmingly romantic one. I really enjoyed it.
After the movie, we went hunting for a nice-to-walk-in pair of shoe for me to wear to the vietnam trip but to no avail as usual. I think DEAR must be really bored that our search is always unfruitful. Haha.
Anyway I loved his company and I think he likes mine too, especially wen he misses me during his reservist period. =)
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Ups and Downs
I'm pms-ing here in front of the laptop in the middle of the night at 2.03am sigh sigh sigh...
This is probably due to the fact that I had a busy weekend since last friday 26th Oct till Monday 29th Oct and a little unsettled on Tuesday settle untamed ends of my life.
DEAR will be going on reservist on 7th Nov which is the coming Wednesday, therefore now he has loads to get done (so that these things need not bug him and get carried over the time) before he goes off. That means less time for me :( and it doesn't help that there was a last minute meeting this afternoon for him and thus an project presentation to churn out; there goes our pre-negotiated shopping trip. He did not join me for music jamming at night as well. I was a little disappointed.
I was also a little unsettled with the fact that we had some miscommunication and a slight dispute over the complimentary tickets to this Sunday's concert due to several issues and repercussions which I (over-proportionately) foresee. I felt very sorry to have used such a harsh tone on my dearest DEAR, was hoping to be able to make up for it and be a nice little woman on our "outing" but too bad it was cancelled due to unforeseen circumstances.
Life is full of ups and downs and relationship is a part of my life... so... I guess, the journey had jsut begun. Good Luck to me!~
This is probably due to the fact that I had a busy weekend since last friday 26th Oct till Monday 29th Oct and a little unsettled on Tuesday settle untamed ends of my life.
DEAR will be going on reservist on 7th Nov which is the coming Wednesday, therefore now he has loads to get done (so that these things need not bug him and get carried over the time) before he goes off. That means less time for me :( and it doesn't help that there was a last minute meeting this afternoon for him and thus an project presentation to churn out; there goes our pre-negotiated shopping trip. He did not join me for music jamming at night as well. I was a little disappointed.
I was also a little unsettled with the fact that we had some miscommunication and a slight dispute over the complimentary tickets to this Sunday's concert due to several issues and repercussions which I (over-proportionately) foresee. I felt very sorry to have used such a harsh tone on my dearest DEAR, was hoping to be able to make up for it and be a nice little woman on our "outing" but too bad it was cancelled due to unforeseen circumstances.
Life is full of ups and downs and relationship is a part of my life... so... I guess, the journey had jsut begun. Good Luck to me!~
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
blogthings
My Birthdate: April 28
I have a Type A personality so big it makes other Type A's shrink away in shame.I never shy away from adversity - and I love to tackle impossible problems.Failure is not an option for me, and more than a few people are put off by my ego.I tend to be controlling, and I hate leaving anything up to chance.
My strength: My bold approach to life
My weakness: I don't accept help
My power color: Bronze
My power symbol: Pyramid
My power month: October
DEAR's Birthdate: July 7
He is an island. He don't need anyone else to make him happy.And though he sees himself as a loner, people are drawn to him. Deep and sensitive, he tends to impress others with his insights.He also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice!
I have a Type A personality so big it makes other Type A's shrink away in shame.I never shy away from adversity - and I love to tackle impossible problems.Failure is not an option for me, and more than a few people are put off by my ego.I tend to be controlling, and I hate leaving anything up to chance.
My strength: My bold approach to life
My weakness: I don't accept help
My power color: Bronze
My power symbol: Pyramid
My power month: October
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DEAR's Birthdate: July 7
He is an island. He don't need anyone else to make him happy.And though he sees himself as a loner, people are drawn to him. Deep and sensitive, he tends to impress others with his insights.He also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice!
His strength: His self sufficiency
His weakness: He despises authority
His power color: Maroon
His power symbol: Hammer
His power month: July
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***You are a Romantic Date***
Your dating philosophy?"Date to fall in love"You prefer your dates to lead you down a romantic pathIf there's no soulmate connection, you're just wasting your time
Guys to look for:Guys serious about love, who say they're ready for marriageSearch for guys looking to "settle down" or "meet my match"Because if a guy's just playing the field, he won't give yout the romance you crave
What Kind of Dating Diva Are You?http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofdatingdivaareyouquiz/
Your dating philosophy?"Date to fall in love"You prefer your dates to lead you down a romantic pathIf there's no soulmate connection, you're just wasting your time
Guys to look for:Guys serious about love, who say they're ready for marriageSearch for guys looking to "settle down" or "meet my match"Because if a guy's just playing the field, he won't give yout the romance you crave
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Updates after busy weekend!
Fri 26th Oct
Singa Nglaras 2nd Klenengan Session
Sat 27th Oct
Accompanied on the yangqin for the Singapore Men's Chorus in their joint concert with the Anglo Chinese School (Barer Road) Choir
Sun 28th Oct
Singa Nglaras performed for a wedding ceremony at the Raffles Town Club
Mon 29th Oct
Sound, Lighting and technical check with the SMC at Esplanade Recital Studio for Sunday's concert
Singa Nglaras 2nd Klenengan Session
Sat 27th Oct
Accompanied on the yangqin for the Singapore Men's Chorus in their joint concert with the Anglo Chinese School (Barer Road) Choir
Sun 28th Oct
Singa Nglaras performed for a wedding ceremony at the Raffles Town Club
Mon 29th Oct
Sound, Lighting and technical check with the SMC at Esplanade Recital Studio for Sunday's concert
Monday, October 29, 2007
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Here's what my ColorGenics Test results say...
You are constantly trying to make a favourable impression and endeavouring to be considered as that someone 'special'. You are pretty good at using various tactics and strategies that give the impression that you are in control. Maybe you are - but you are constantly watching to see whether or not your endeavours are truly appreciated. Be careful... just as 'you' may be endeavouring to influence others, 'they' may indeed be influencing you.
For some time now you have been feeling rather insecure. You are looking for - and needing - an environment that can offer you roots, stability and a position that will relieve you of excess tension and stress.
You feel unhappy because you feel that you are not able to obtain the co-operation of those around you. All you would like at this time would be to achieve harmony within your circle.
It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.
You are putting on a show - a facade. You are a master of demonstrating considerable charm in the hope that this can or will lead to better things. Deep down you are fearful that this may not work and that you may have to employ other strategies in order to realise all your ambitions.
Want to take the test? Go to ColorGenics.
For some time now you have been feeling rather insecure. You are looking for - and needing - an environment that can offer you roots, stability and a position that will relieve you of excess tension and stress.
You feel unhappy because you feel that you are not able to obtain the co-operation of those around you. All you would like at this time would be to achieve harmony within your circle.
It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.
You are putting on a show - a facade. You are a master of demonstrating considerable charm in the hope that this can or will lead to better things. Deep down you are fearful that this may not work and that you may have to employ other strategies in order to realise all your ambitions.
Want to take the test? Go to ColorGenics.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Hornist, Tubist, Gamelaner
Today is such a pending-rain day. It looks like it is going to rain all day but didn't. I didn't wash my clothes as planned. Stopped myself from being online too much so the rest of the day was left either watching TV or walking from room to room not wanting to get aything done. I practised the yangqin for this saturday's concert, but soon ended up practising (or rather playing) my student's exam piece.
I guess I might be right about my judgement of DEAR last week. Today yet again the same reply " need to buy dinner for sis because parents working late". But a slight improvement with the added " I'll be late". We'll see if he really turns up at his stated 8.30pm. Today dated Eileen for dinner, DEAR can't make it, Alicia isn't going early to practise gender. Jan put me under the "balungan tutorial" list who has to come early for extra practice so as to not disrupt the main practice at night. I hope he meant it to be a REAL learning session for me to practice gambang and learn bonang, otherwise I wouldn't welcome it at all.
OK, off to clementi to wait for Eileen. Will continue blogging when I am home. (---16.35hrs on 24th Oct)
Home! DEAR did come for practice at 9.05pm. Not quite, I called him at 9pm he said 5 more mins, when he reached he smsed to say he'll wait outside for me. When gamelan ended, Edwin, Sherina, Eileen and us went for supper at clementi, so that they could interact with him a little more.
DEAR asked if I want to go to the travel fair on saturday, so is he really planning a trip? heehee, is that why i need to get a set of bikini?
Anyway, DEAR asked if my mum asked who I went swimming with.... but my mum didn't have much adverse respond.
I guess I might be right about my judgement of DEAR last week. Today yet again the same reply " need to buy dinner for sis because parents working late". But a slight improvement with the added " I'll be late". We'll see if he really turns up at his stated 8.30pm. Today dated Eileen for dinner, DEAR can't make it, Alicia isn't going early to practise gender. Jan put me under the "balungan tutorial" list who has to come early for extra practice so as to not disrupt the main practice at night. I hope he meant it to be a REAL learning session for me to practice gambang and learn bonang, otherwise I wouldn't welcome it at all.
OK, off to clementi to wait for Eileen. Will continue blogging when I am home. (---16.35hrs on 24th Oct)
Home! DEAR did come for practice at 9.05pm. Not quite, I called him at 9pm he said 5 more mins, when he reached he smsed to say he'll wait outside for me. When gamelan ended, Edwin, Sherina, Eileen and us went for supper at clementi, so that they could interact with him a little more.
DEAR asked if I want to go to the travel fair on saturday, so is he really planning a trip? heehee, is that why i need to get a set of bikini?
Anyway, DEAR asked if my mum asked who I went swimming with.... but my mum didn't have much adverse respond.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Swimming with Dear Dear
Had our first swim together this afternoon. Probably due to the fact that it was afternoon 4plus, the place was virtually empty. AiRen said it felt just like a private pool for us ;).
The experience was not as daunting as I thought. Though I was quite conscious about how I look, big thighs which usually hide underneath skirts no matter how mini, the ugly part is still covered. AiRen was quite shy, wore his T-shirt to the pool then take off, while I didn't even have anything on other than my swim suit. Triumph swimsuit, blue with pink and yellow embroided flowers which I am so proud of. SO who is the more shy person? Heehee...
Certain exciting things did went through my mind, but those are for my mind only and probably discussion with him in the near future, but it's private and confidential for the moment and I shan't disclose. Anyway, AiRen was super well-behaved I must compliment! Did not even scrutinise my body (or maybe he's so good at discreetly doing so that I couldn't tell).
Anyway, AiRen has such a nice body (not those super model or bodybuilder of course), plus he is really tall: I need to tip-toe to keep my nose and mouth just above the water level and he can stand feet flat on the ground and the water is at his neck.
Anyway, after the swim I had to rush off to harbourfront again. After everything, wanted to buy one or two more pairs of shoes to make the trip worthwhile but couldn't decided, so decided that I'll try my luck again on Friday if I do go there again. On my way home, went to OG again and bought a white bag $19.95. Now I have 3 new bags, and ironically matching shoes--A gold bag and gold sandals, red bag and red shoe, white bag (and I was thinkin of buying white shoes on Friday fromt he DMK sale) Haha.
The experience was not as daunting as I thought. Though I was quite conscious about how I look, big thighs which usually hide underneath skirts no matter how mini, the ugly part is still covered. AiRen was quite shy, wore his T-shirt to the pool then take off, while I didn't even have anything on other than my swim suit. Triumph swimsuit, blue with pink and yellow embroided flowers which I am so proud of. SO who is the more shy person? Heehee...
Certain exciting things did went through my mind, but those are for my mind only and probably discussion with him in the near future, but it's private and confidential for the moment and I shan't disclose. Anyway, AiRen was super well-behaved I must compliment! Did not even scrutinise my body (or maybe he's so good at discreetly doing so that I couldn't tell).
Anyway, AiRen has such a nice body (not those super model or bodybuilder of course), plus he is really tall: I need to tip-toe to keep my nose and mouth just above the water level and he can stand feet flat on the ground and the water is at his neck.
Anyway, after the swim I had to rush off to harbourfront again. After everything, wanted to buy one or two more pairs of shoes to make the trip worthwhile but couldn't decided, so decided that I'll try my luck again on Friday if I do go there again. On my way home, went to OG again and bought a white bag $19.95. Now I have 3 new bags, and ironically matching shoes--A gold bag and gold sandals, red bag and red shoe, white bag (and I was thinkin of buying white shoes on Friday fromt he DMK sale) Haha.
Monday, October 22, 2007
Girl's day out
Today I've just received bad news that one of the assignments I was to be getting for November is being cancelled. There goes my few hundred bucks income, I'd better find something else and SOON!~
In the afternoon, was given a lift by an ex-colleague to Orchard road since he was going to town. His baby blue chervolet is so different from DEAR's red red VIOS. =) Different man, different style. Heehee... Very thankful he helped me saved a few bucks of busfare.
So I shopped (window shopped actually) from Lido where my colleague parked his car and we parted ways. Went to:
- TopShop(Wisma)
- Warehouse (Wisma)
- Iseatan (Wisma)
- Future State (Wisma) which actually sells phuture london's clothes at super discounted price
- Forever 21 (Wisma)
Then walked through the takashimaya underpass by Mandarin hotel by John Little, Centrepoint, OG, Istana, Plaza Sing and took the North-east Line to Harbourfront.
DMK is having a roadshow sale at Harbourfront, so I continued my window shopping. $9.90, $17.90, $14.90, $7.90. How can a well known brand be so economic? I decided I'll come back to buy after my dinner music job. Hopefully they are still open.
Went to Cold Storage to buy three sushi, decided I should stop my bad habit of starving myself just to save money. DEAR said I should be a bit more 'buibui' as his mum's only comment (not quite "only") about me was that I am skinny (maybe she meant "too skinny").
Speaking of skiny, today on my ex-colleague's car, he commented that I seemed to have become fatter, possibly because he had never had the chance to see me dressed with minimal sleeve (I was in a halterneck) which exposes my upper arm which personally I feel was of some substance (I call that slightly toned muscles from playing music).
Anyway ship was the usual, I continued my attempt to plump myself since food was free, not that I stuff myself, but I just let myself eat as much as I could and as much as I felt like eating. Very few customers, no tip$ for us but at least the food looks more intact thanif there were a swarm of hungry army. Pretty enjoyable. Perhaps I was in a good mood?
After the job, went back to the intended DMK shoe sale. It's still open, YAY!~ Bought the pair of $7.90 red shoes which I had in mind all the cruise time and decided to buy them if they were comfortable. Surprised that the shoes come in a baby-blue bag instead of a plastic bag, quite huge, like you can fit in three shoe boxes; that's their way of telling you to buy more in one go and probably to save their bags when you really do so.
Then took the NEL train to chinatowntown stop and did my usual hunting-for-worthwhile items at People's Park OG. Found a good catch! $6 Denim pleated skirt, bought it at once after trying to make sure it fits. =)
Bought two items today: Denim pleated skirt and a pair of red heels.
In the afternoon, was given a lift by an ex-colleague to Orchard road since he was going to town. His baby blue chervolet is so different from DEAR's red red VIOS. =) Different man, different style. Heehee... Very thankful he helped me saved a few bucks of busfare.
So I shopped (window shopped actually) from Lido where my colleague parked his car and we parted ways. Went to:
- TopShop(Wisma)
- Warehouse (Wisma)
- Iseatan (Wisma)
- Future State (Wisma) which actually sells phuture london's clothes at super discounted price
- Forever 21 (Wisma)
Then walked through the takashimaya underpass by Mandarin hotel by John Little, Centrepoint, OG, Istana, Plaza Sing and took the North-east Line to Harbourfront.
DMK is having a roadshow sale at Harbourfront, so I continued my window shopping. $9.90, $17.90, $14.90, $7.90. How can a well known brand be so economic? I decided I'll come back to buy after my dinner music job. Hopefully they are still open.
Went to Cold Storage to buy three sushi, decided I should stop my bad habit of starving myself just to save money. DEAR said I should be a bit more 'buibui' as his mum's only comment (not quite "only") about me was that I am skinny (maybe she meant "too skinny").
Speaking of skiny, today on my ex-colleague's car, he commented that I seemed to have become fatter, possibly because he had never had the chance to see me dressed with minimal sleeve (I was in a halterneck) which exposes my upper arm which personally I feel was of some substance (I call that slightly toned muscles from playing music).
Anyway ship was the usual, I continued my attempt to plump myself since food was free, not that I stuff myself, but I just let myself eat as much as I could and as much as I felt like eating. Very few customers, no tip$ for us but at least the food looks more intact thanif there were a swarm of hungry army. Pretty enjoyable. Perhaps I was in a good mood?
After the job, went back to the intended DMK shoe sale. It's still open, YAY!~ Bought the pair of $7.90 red shoes which I had in mind all the cruise time and decided to buy them if they were comfortable. Surprised that the shoes come in a baby-blue bag instead of a plastic bag, quite huge, like you can fit in three shoe boxes; that's their way of telling you to buy more in one go and probably to save their bags when you really do so.
Then took the NEL train to chinatowntown stop and did my usual hunting-for-worthwhile items at People's Park OG. Found a good catch! $6 Denim pleated skirt, bought it at once after trying to make sure it fits. =)
Bought two items today: Denim pleated skirt and a pair of red heels.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Busy Busy Weekend
The weekend started off rather busy. First with a failed attempt to gather a random crowd for drinking(didn't really feel like going anyway, was feeling flu-ish) on Friday night. Then decided to watch a movie at 9.30pm with DEAR but couldn't make it one time, so we went to play pool instead. Pretty fun game, 2-2 =), pool is how we built our trust in each other and drew closer in terms of physical distance.
Then comes today, saturday. Had to relief a colleague's duty at the kindergarten maths, realised how unlucky I am to have 20 students with one asst, while today's slot had only 8 students, also one teacher one asst. How unfair can life be? Then DEAR and I didn't really confirm plans for today, so eventually nothing worked out, we were each in our own home.
Sunday I'll be busy "earning money" so no more dates. Doting DEAR is also afraid I might be too tired after work. So there goes this weekend... Sobs...
It is now looking like I am avoiding swimming with him. Actually I must say a bit shy, not so much about showing him my body shape but rather shy about seeing him almost naked. I shan't elaborate too much here.... heehee
Hope things get better before DEAR goes reservist in the beginning of November.
Then comes today, saturday. Had to relief a colleague's duty at the kindergarten maths, realised how unlucky I am to have 20 students with one asst, while today's slot had only 8 students, also one teacher one asst. How unfair can life be? Then DEAR and I didn't really confirm plans for today, so eventually nothing worked out, we were each in our own home.
Sunday I'll be busy "earning money" so no more dates. Doting DEAR is also afraid I might be too tired after work. So there goes this weekend... Sobs...
It is now looking like I am avoiding swimming with him. Actually I must say a bit shy, not so much about showing him my body shape but rather shy about seeing him almost naked. I shan't elaborate too much here.... heehee
Hope things get better before DEAR goes reservist in the beginning of November.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Tai-tai dun-wannabe
It's been more than a week since I am officially out of job. It actually feels more tired bumming around at home because I will feel guilty that I am not earning my keep so I should contribute by tidying the house or at least doing something useful for my family; for instance cook dinner, clean the house, wash and iron my parents' clothes... in short, being a miniature housewife for this home built by my mum and dad.
I'd think that's good training for my future, that I would probably be at a better position to manage my own home and make my hubby feel good about coming home from work and all that. Of course who doesnt yearn to be a Taitai who can have enough money for spending, just managing the household (probably no need to lift her own fingers to do chores, have maid to do it). I on the otherhand suddenly feel the contrary.
Now that I am out of job and Dear is still working his permanent full time job, I feel like I am a burden. Although we are not married or in anyway indebted or owes each other a living or anything that sort, I just feel that I am there to suck out his energy without much control from my side. While I am bored at home trying to stay useful, he is busy at work and I must restrain myself quite hard to avoid disturbing or hindering his work in any way so that hopefully he can finish his stuffs and have more time for me. That aside, of course I will try my best to remind myself that work comes first and for a man it is a good sign if he places his career in priority (even better if i stand on par with it). However, the little attention-seeking nature in me just had to burst sometime and I will either start to hyper around or just start imagining things in the bad direction.
Today, Dear said we cant have dinner because he has to take care of his sis while his parents can't be home. The first thought I had was impressed of his responsibility. After a while I began being jealous of his sister, that he places her more important than me (and will it remain that way I ask? would it bother me?) And even later I began to think if it was an excuse that he was using to avoid having dinner with me for having dinner will put him in the spot of me asking him to join me for music jamming which isn't quite his forte.
Call me too sensitive or whatever, but it isn't usual of him to call me after work just before heading home, just to say " nothing much, I just wanted to call you to ask what you are doing at this very moment" I really don't know what to think of it. First I was surprised, and touched as a result that he thought of me right away after a busy day's work and called me even before he heads home for the task of "babysitting" his sis. Flirted a little on the phone and showed my appreciation for his loving gesture. Then after a short while, I wondered if it was his guilty conscience, that he is hiding something from me or something (related or not related to me) was bothering him and he was trying to tell me or trying to use my presence to help him forget the matter for a while.
I am really confused and not really confident about this relationship. Sometimes when too many good things happen too fast, one get frightened and not know what to do. I wished love has some formulae or procedures to follow to at least feel safe. But oh well, the one sure thing about life is that it is unpredictable.
I'd think that's good training for my future, that I would probably be at a better position to manage my own home and make my hubby feel good about coming home from work and all that. Of course who doesnt yearn to be a Taitai who can have enough money for spending, just managing the household (probably no need to lift her own fingers to do chores, have maid to do it). I on the otherhand suddenly feel the contrary.
Now that I am out of job and Dear is still working his permanent full time job, I feel like I am a burden. Although we are not married or in anyway indebted or owes each other a living or anything that sort, I just feel that I am there to suck out his energy without much control from my side. While I am bored at home trying to stay useful, he is busy at work and I must restrain myself quite hard to avoid disturbing or hindering his work in any way so that hopefully he can finish his stuffs and have more time for me. That aside, of course I will try my best to remind myself that work comes first and for a man it is a good sign if he places his career in priority (even better if i stand on par with it). However, the little attention-seeking nature in me just had to burst sometime and I will either start to hyper around or just start imagining things in the bad direction.
Today, Dear said we cant have dinner because he has to take care of his sis while his parents can't be home. The first thought I had was impressed of his responsibility. After a while I began being jealous of his sister, that he places her more important than me (and will it remain that way I ask? would it bother me?) And even later I began to think if it was an excuse that he was using to avoid having dinner with me for having dinner will put him in the spot of me asking him to join me for music jamming which isn't quite his forte.
Call me too sensitive or whatever, but it isn't usual of him to call me after work just before heading home, just to say " nothing much, I just wanted to call you to ask what you are doing at this very moment" I really don't know what to think of it. First I was surprised, and touched as a result that he thought of me right away after a busy day's work and called me even before he heads home for the task of "babysitting" his sis. Flirted a little on the phone and showed my appreciation for his loving gesture. Then after a short while, I wondered if it was his guilty conscience, that he is hiding something from me or something (related or not related to me) was bothering him and he was trying to tell me or trying to use my presence to help him forget the matter for a while.
I am really confused and not really confident about this relationship. Sometimes when too many good things happen too fast, one get frightened and not know what to do. I wished love has some formulae or procedures to follow to at least feel safe. But oh well, the one sure thing about life is that it is unpredictable.
Monday, October 15, 2007
Jinxed
I think I am jinxed as Airen's mummy implied to him indirectly. His sexy red car just refuse to start (again) today. This time it was broad daylight and somemore the key could be pulled out of its socket. After we both got out of the car, AiRen decided to try again, this time it works!~ The car just don't like me sitting in it. Maybe it's like BUMBLEBEE in TRANSFORMERS.
Just read my ex's blog, saw an entry about how sad he is about the many things in life. I feel sad all of a sudden about my own too. Jobless, not contributing much in any way...
Just read my ex's blog, saw an entry about how sad he is about the many things in life. I feel sad all of a sudden about my own too. Jobless, not contributing much in any way...
Thursday, October 11, 2007
After 11 days of Abstinence
After 11 days of not dating cos AiRen busy, we finally met up for a night out. A brief night out only, sitting on a rock in a park and just enjoying each other's company.
One of my colleague has decided to propose to his girlfriend, I wish him good luck!~ Hope he'll invite me to his wedding or let me join in the sisters' gang, haha. Maybe I can accumulate merits from the wedding or gain some experience of how to get married? LOL~
One of my colleague has decided to propose to his girlfriend, I wish him good luck!~ Hope he'll invite me to his wedding or let me join in the sisters' gang, haha. Maybe I can accumulate merits from the wedding or gain some experience of how to get married? LOL~
Thursday, September 27, 2007
For One More Day...
For one more day and I will:
-no longer be employed
-no longer have a job
-no longer be a teacher
-no longer work in where I got to know so many wonderful people
-no longer be able to surprise Dear with little notes and sweets on his table in the morning
-no longer be able to see Dear in action(at work)
-no longer have legitimate reason to dine with Dear
-no longer guaranteed see Dear everyday
and the list goes one
Hope for the best in the few days to come. I shall take a short break(intended therefore didnt even bother to look hard for assignment to immediately continue) and go shop like a tai tai.
Hope next year I'll be able to do contract teaching somewhere, anywhere...
-no longer be employed
-no longer have a job
-no longer be a teacher
-no longer work in where I got to know so many wonderful people
-no longer be able to surprise Dear with little notes and sweets on his table in the morning
-no longer be able to see Dear in action(at work)
-no longer have legitimate reason to dine with Dear
-no longer guaranteed see Dear everyday
and the list goes one
Hope for the best in the few days to come. I shall take a short break(intended therefore didnt even bother to look hard for assignment to immediately continue) and go shop like a tai tai.
Hope next year I'll be able to do contract teaching somewhere, anywhere...
Monday, September 24, 2007
Water babies = Diaper Jelly
These little jelly-like things looking like the bubble tea's pearls that students play in class are driving me crazy because of the mess that they create. I had this sudden urge to want to write to the ST forum (that's just a thought, perhaps I am too lazy afterall), so I did some research and found two sites relevant:
www.chocolate-ng.blogspot.com
http://www.sgforums.com/?action=thread_display&thread_id=275138&page=1
I think these things if not controlled in the school compound and f the students' interest last, could lead to health and hygiene problems something as serious as SARS and Hand-Foot-Mouth... yes, say I am kia-si, exaggerate, but obviously these kids as old as 14 years old show no sense of caution when they play with such substances.
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anyway, tomorrow is mid-autumn festival, I shall not dampen my spirit for such a romantic night because of students. I am looking forward to the night. Anyway fun and interesting will be taken by me, haha
www.chocolate-ng.blogspot.com
http://www.sgforums.com/?action=thread_display&thread_id=275138&page=1
I think these things if not controlled in the school compound and f the students' interest last, could lead to health and hygiene problems something as serious as SARS and Hand-Foot-Mouth... yes, say I am kia-si, exaggerate, but obviously these kids as old as 14 years old show no sense of caution when they play with such substances.
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anyway, tomorrow is mid-autumn festival, I shall not dampen my spirit for such a romantic night because of students. I am looking forward to the night. Anyway fun and interesting will be taken by me, haha
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Moon and Cakes
With the MAF around the corner, this weekend was spent on a theme surrounding the festival, or rather busily exchanging mooncakes.
Friday was spent with a long long romantic walk with AiRen from riverside point(where we parked the ever-sexy red car) through clarke quay, then to boat quay(which is what we call singapore river right?) to see the lanterns. All night was romantic, holding hands, hands around shoulders and waists, little teasing... Though I was having a backache, I still enjoyed the walk. DEAR offered to give me a massage but I was too shy... haha.
Saturday, AiRen bought Harbour City mooncakes for my parents. I didn't get much response from them, only point made was that they were given as a gift from AiRen. [but he later said it was according to plan]
Sunday, I decided to reciprocate by buying his family a box of Bengawan Solo Mooncakes. I bought 4 for them. Hope they like it and I can "add points" hahaha.
Friday was spent with a long long romantic walk with AiRen from riverside point(where we parked the ever-sexy red car) through clarke quay, then to boat quay(which is what we call singapore river right?) to see the lanterns. All night was romantic, holding hands, hands around shoulders and waists, little teasing... Though I was having a backache, I still enjoyed the walk. DEAR offered to give me a massage but I was too shy... haha.
Saturday, AiRen bought Harbour City mooncakes for my parents. I didn't get much response from them, only point made was that they were given as a gift from AiRen. [but he later said it was according to plan]
Sunday, I decided to reciprocate by buying his family a box of Bengawan Solo Mooncakes. I bought 4 for them. Hope they like it and I can "add points" hahaha.
Friday, September 21, 2007
My virgin Blog
As the title suggests, this is the first time i ever started a blog and posted a blog entry. Nothing much happened today actually, just got to know that there were many parappazi teams in my workplace speculating about my relationship with my boyfriend, who is also working in the same place. I do not really know what gave us away, perhaps it is that special eletric signal that is generated around us, or maybe it is that special way we look at each other? Whatever it is, we have been found out, though most people are still keeping quiet.
All these are actualy quite disturbing, making me wonder if I had been too careless about how I behave and as a result lose that professionalism which I am suppose to have? I will reflect on that over the weekend.
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Next topic: with the actual day for mid-autumn festival falling on tuesday, it is only natural that people celebrate it over the weekend, with family and love ones. I am looking forward to some romantic activities which I hope my BF will plan (hint hint). It had been a long time since we really spent quality time together. I felt so and to be angry with him. hopefully the romantic moments will bring our relationship to a higher level?
All these are actualy quite disturbing, making me wonder if I had been too careless about how I behave and as a result lose that professionalism which I am suppose to have? I will reflect on that over the weekend.
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Next topic: with the actual day for mid-autumn festival falling on tuesday, it is only natural that people celebrate it over the weekend, with family and love ones. I am looking forward to some romantic activities which I hope my BF will plan (hint hint). It had been a long time since we really spent quality time together. I felt so and to be angry with him. hopefully the romantic moments will bring our relationship to a higher level?
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