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My Birthdate: April 28

I have a Type A personality so big it makes other Type A's shrink away in shame.I never shy away from adversity - and I love to tackle impossible problems.Failure is not an option for me, and more than a few people are put off by my ego.I tend to be controlling, and I hate leaving anything up to chance.

My strength: My bold approach to life

My weakness: I don't accept help

My power color: Bronze

My power symbol: Pyramid

My power month: October

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DEAR's Birthdate: July 7
He is an island. He don't need anyone else to make him happy.And though he sees himself as a loner, people are drawn to him. Deep and sensitive, he tends to impress others with his insights.He also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice!

His strength: His self sufficiency

His weakness: He despises authority

His power color: Maroon

His power symbol: Hammer

His power month: July

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***You are a Romantic Date***
Your dating philosophy?"Date to fall in love"You prefer your dates to lead you down a romantic pathIf there's no soulmate connection, you're just wasting your time
Guys to look for:Guys serious about love, who say they're ready for marriageSearch for guys looking to "settle down" or "meet my match"Because if a guy's just playing the field, he won't give yout the romance you crave
What Kind of Dating Diva Are You?http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofdatingdivaareyouquiz/

Updates after busy weekend!

Fri 26th Oct
Singa Nglaras 2nd Klenengan Session

Sat 27th Oct
Accompanied on the yangqin for the Singapore Men's Chorus in their joint concert with the Anglo Chinese School (Barer Road) Choir

Sun 28th Oct
Singa Nglaras performed for a wedding ceremony at the Raffles Town Club

Mon 29th Oct
Sound, Lighting and technical check with the SMC at Esplanade Recital Studio for Sunday's concert

Gigs and more Gigs

Wedding Gig at the Raffles Town Club (photo from Mus)

Here's what my ColorGenics Test results say...

You are constantly trying to make a favourable impression and endeavouring to be considered as that someone 'special'. You are pretty good at using various tactics and strategies that give the impression that you are in control. Maybe you are - but you are constantly watching to see whether or not your endeavours are truly appreciated. Be careful... just as 'you' may be endeavouring to influence others, 'they' may indeed be influencing you.
For some time now you have been feeling rather insecure. You are looking for - and needing - an environment that can offer you roots, stability and a position that will relieve you of excess tension and stress.
You feel unhappy because you feel that you are not able to obtain the co-operation of those around you. All you would like at this time would be to achieve harmony within your circle.
It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.
You are putting on a show - a facade. You are a master of demonstrating considerable charm in the hope that this can or will lead to better things. Deep down you are fearful that this may not work and that you may have to employ other strategies in order to realise all your ambitions.

Want to take the test? Go to ColorGenics.

Hornist, Tubist, Gamelaner

Today is such a pending-rain day. It looks like it is going to rain all day but didn't. I didn't wash my clothes as planned. Stopped myself from being online too much so the rest of the day was left either watching TV or walking from room to room not wanting to get aything done. I practised the yangqin for this saturday's concert, but soon ended up practising (or rather playing) my student's exam piece.

I guess I might be right about my judgement of DEAR last week. Today yet again the same reply " need to buy dinner for sis because parents working late". But a slight improvement with the added " I'll be late". We'll see if he really turns up at his stated 8.30pm. Today dated Eileen for dinner, DEAR can't make it, Alicia isn't going early to practise gender. Jan put me under the "balungan tutorial" list who has to come early for extra practice so as to not disrupt the main practice at night. I hope he meant it to be a REAL learning session for me to practice gambang and learn bonang, otherwise I wouldn't welcome it at all.

OK, off to clementi to wait for Eileen. Will continue blogging when I am home. (---16.35hrs on 24th Oct)

Home! DEAR did come for practice at 9.05pm. Not quite, I called him at 9pm he said 5 more mins, when he reached he smsed to say he'll wait outside for me. When gamelan ended, Edwin, Sherina, Eileen and us went for supper at clementi, so that they could interact with him a little more.

DEAR asked if I want to go to the travel fair on saturday, so is he really planning a trip? heehee, is that why i need to get a set of bikini?

Anyway, DEAR asked if my mum asked who I went swimming with.... but my mum didn't have much adverse respond.

Swimming with Dear Dear

Had our first swim together this afternoon. Probably due to the fact that it was afternoon 4plus, the place was virtually empty. AiRen said it felt just like a private pool for us ;).

The experience was not as daunting as I thought. Though I was quite conscious about how I look, big thighs which usually hide underneath skirts no matter how mini, the ugly part is still covered. AiRen was quite shy, wore his T-shirt to the pool then take off, while I didn't even have anything on other than my swim suit. Triumph swimsuit, blue with pink and yellow embroided flowers which I am so proud of. SO who is the more shy person? Heehee...

Certain exciting things did went through my mind, but those are for my mind only and probably discussion with him in the near future, but it's private and confidential for the moment and I shan't disclose. Anyway, AiRen was super well-behaved I must compliment! Did not even scrutinise my body (or maybe he's so good at discreetly doing so that I couldn't tell).

Anyway, AiRen has such a nice body (not those super model or bodybuilder of course), plus he is really tall: I need to tip-toe to keep my nose and mouth just above the water level and he can stand feet flat on the ground and the water is at his neck.

Anyway, after the swim I had to rush off to harbourfront again. After everything, wanted to buy one or two more pairs of shoes to make the trip worthwhile but couldn't decided, so decided that I'll try my luck again on Friday if I do go there again. On my way home, went to OG again and bought a white bag $19.95. Now I have 3 new bags, and ironically matching shoes--A gold bag and gold sandals, red bag and red shoe, white bag (and I was thinkin of buying white shoes on Friday fromt he DMK sale) Haha.

Girl's day out

Today I've just received bad news that one of the assignments I was to be getting for November is being cancelled. There goes my few hundred bucks income, I'd better find something else and SOON!~

In the afternoon, was given a lift by an ex-colleague to Orchard road since he was going to town. His baby blue chervolet is so different from DEAR's red red VIOS. =) Different man, different style. Heehee... Very thankful he helped me saved a few bucks of busfare.

So I shopped (window shopped actually) from Lido where my colleague parked his car and we parted ways. Went to:
- TopShop(Wisma)
- Warehouse (Wisma)
- Iseatan (Wisma)
- Future State (Wisma) which actually sells phuture london's clothes at super discounted price
- Forever 21 (Wisma)
Then walked through the takashimaya underpass by Mandarin hotel by John Little, Centrepoint, OG, Istana, Plaza Sing and took the North-east Line to Harbourfront.

DMK is having a roadshow sale at Harbourfront, so I continued my window shopping. $9.90, $17.90, $14.90, $7.90. How can a well known brand be so economic? I decided I'll come back to buy after my dinner music job. Hopefully they are still open.

Went to Cold Storage to buy three sushi, decided I should stop my bad habit of starving myself just to save money. DEAR said I should be a bit more 'buibui' as his mum's only comment (not quite "only") about me was that I am skinny (maybe she meant "too skinny").

Speaking of skiny, today on my ex-colleague's car, he commented that I seemed to have become fatter, possibly because he had never had the chance to see me dressed with minimal sleeve (I was in a halterneck) which exposes my upper arm which personally I feel was of some substance (I call that slightly toned muscles from playing music).

Anyway ship was the usual, I continued my attempt to plump myself since food was free, not that I stuff myself, but I just let myself eat as much as I could and as much as I felt like eating. Very few customers, no tip$ for us but at least the food looks more intact thanif there were a swarm of hungry army. Pretty enjoyable. Perhaps I was in a good mood?

After the job, went back to the intended DMK shoe sale. It's still open, YAY!~ Bought the pair of $7.90 red shoes which I had in mind all the cruise time and decided to buy them if they were comfortable. Surprised that the shoes come in a baby-blue bag instead of a plastic bag, quite huge, like you can fit in three shoe boxes; that's their way of telling you to buy more in one go and probably to save their bags when you really do so.

Then took the NEL train to chinatowntown stop and did my usual hunting-for-worthwhile items at People's Park OG. Found a good catch! $6 Denim pleated skirt, bought it at once after trying to make sure it fits. =)

Bought two items today: Denim pleated skirt and a pair of red heels.

Busy Busy Weekend

The weekend started off rather busy. First with a failed attempt to gather a random crowd for drinking(didn't really feel like going anyway, was feeling flu-ish) on Friday night. Then decided to watch a movie at 9.30pm with DEAR but couldn't make it one time, so we went to play pool instead. Pretty fun game, 2-2 =), pool is how we built our trust in each other and drew closer in terms of physical distance.

Then comes today, saturday. Had to relief a colleague's duty at the kindergarten maths, realised how unlucky I am to have 20 students with one asst, while today's slot had only 8 students, also one teacher one asst. How unfair can life be? Then DEAR and I didn't really confirm plans for today, so eventually nothing worked out, we were each in our own home.

Sunday I'll be busy "earning money" so no more dates. Doting DEAR is also afraid I might be too tired after work. So there goes this weekend... Sobs...

It is now looking like I am avoiding swimming with him. Actually I must say a bit shy, not so much about showing him my body shape but rather shy about seeing him almost naked. I shan't elaborate too much here.... heehee

Hope things get better before DEAR goes reservist in the beginning of November.

Tai-tai dun-wannabe

It's been more than a week since I am officially out of job. It actually feels more tired bumming around at home because I will feel guilty that I am not earning my keep so I should contribute by tidying the house or at least doing something useful for my family; for instance cook dinner, clean the house, wash and iron my parents' clothes... in short, being a miniature housewife for this home built by my mum and dad.

I'd think that's good training for my future, that I would probably be at a better position to manage my own home and make my hubby feel good about coming home from work and all that. Of course who doesnt yearn to be a Taitai who can have enough money for spending, just managing the household (probably no need to lift her own fingers to do chores, have maid to do it). I on the otherhand suddenly feel the contrary.

Now that I am out of job and Dear is still working his permanent full time job, I feel like I am a burden. Although we are not married or in anyway indebted or owes each other a living or anything that sort, I just feel that I am there to suck out his energy without much control from my side. While I am bored at home trying to stay useful, he is busy at work and I must restrain myself quite hard to avoid disturbing or hindering his work in any way so that hopefully he can finish his stuffs and have more time for me. That aside, of course I will try my best to remind myself that work comes first and for a man it is a good sign if he places his career in priority (even better if i stand on par with it). However, the little attention-seeking nature in me just had to burst sometime and I will either start to hyper around or just start imagining things in the bad direction.

Today, Dear said we cant have dinner because he has to take care of his sis while his parents can't be home. The first thought I had was impressed of his responsibility. After a while I began being jealous of his sister, that he places her more important than me (and will it remain that way I ask? would it bother me?) And even later I began to think if it was an excuse that he was using to avoid having dinner with me for having dinner will put him in the spot of me asking him to join me for music jamming which isn't quite his forte.



Call me too sensitive or whatever, but it isn't usual of him to call me after work just before heading home, just to say " nothing much, I just wanted to call you to ask what you are doing at this very moment" I really don't know what to think of it. First I was surprised, and touched as a result that he thought of me right away after a busy day's work and called me even before he heads home for the task of "babysitting" his sis. Flirted a little on the phone and showed my appreciation for his loving gesture. Then after a short while, I wondered if it was his guilty conscience, that he is hiding something from me or something (related or not related to me) was bothering him and he was trying to tell me or trying to use my presence to help him forget the matter for a while.

I am really confused and not really confident about this relationship. Sometimes when too many good things happen too fast, one get frightened and not know what to do. I wished love has some formulae or procedures to follow to at least feel safe. But oh well, the one sure thing about life is that it is unpredictable.

Jinxed

I think I am jinxed as Airen's mummy implied to him indirectly. His sexy red car just refuse to start (again) today. This time it was broad daylight and somemore the key could be pulled out of its socket. After we both got out of the car, AiRen decided to try again, this time it works!~ The car just don't like me sitting in it. Maybe it's like BUMBLEBEE in TRANSFORMERS.

Just read my ex's blog, saw an entry about how sad he is about the many things in life. I feel sad all of a sudden about my own too. Jobless, not contributing much in any way...

After 11 days of Abstinence

After 11 days of not dating cos AiRen busy, we finally met up for a night out. A brief night out only, sitting on a rock in a park and just enjoying each other's company.

One of my colleague has decided to propose to his girlfriend, I wish him good luck!~ Hope he'll invite me to his wedding or let me join in the sisters' gang, haha. Maybe I can accumulate merits from the wedding or gain some experience of how to get married? LOL~